Showing posts with label thought & opinion. Show all posts
Showing posts with label thought & opinion. Show all posts

Thursday, May 16, 2013

the bane that are telemarketers...

this story is absolutely true, it happened to me and less than an hour ago:

Telemarketer: Good evening mam, my name is xxxxx from zzzzz College and I would like to invite you to attend a Tour Guide Course.
Me: a Tour Guide Course???
T/M: Yes mam.  You have been recommended by someone who had earlier attended this course.
Me: And what will I do with this course?
T/M: After you do this course, you could run tours as a guide in your free time.
Me: And where would I find free time?
T/M: .........
Me: Do you even know what I do for a living currently?
T/M: No mam.
Me: And it never occurred to you to ask first?
T/M: .........
Me: So what makes you think this would be relevant to me or if it would even interest me?
T/M: it’s only 45 minutes mam
Me: Tell me who it was who recommended me for this course?
T/M: I can’t tell you that mam
Me: So why should I believe you?
T/M: it’s our policy, mam. We can’t give out our contact details
Me: (yelling by now) and yet you will use it to harass me. how do i know you're even telling me the truth about a recommendation or you're just making it all up??
T/M: mam, we are only doing our job
Me: well good for you, I don’t want to hear any more until I know who it was who was stupid enough to suggest that I would be interested  in it!
T/M: it was your friend or your relative who is stupid…

grrrrrrr... gerammmmm...

Tuesday, May 07, 2013

and the awakening continues...


A little over five years ago, I wrote a blog entry the morning (well, two mornings) after GE12.  I said a couple of things that now, in retrospect, were eerily insightful.

Five years on and we’re now past GE13.  The general feeling is one of another massive hang-over.  In fact, this comment overheard on social media summed up the dramatics; “feels like the morning after I’ve been gang-raped”. 

But I digress.

Back in 2008, I wrote about the things I learnt from that election.  In a nutshell:

1. Exercising one’s vote matters;
2. That it was not about the candidate but more about the badge he/she wore;
3. There was a growing voice (of discontent) among the youth; and
4. It was the start of a time for opposition to prove their salt.

About voting: Exercising one’s vote should have always mattered.  But there was a long time during which it didn’t.  That all changed in 2008.  Five years on, it is more evident than ever.  The gradual shifts in the realization of voters themselves of the power they wielded.  Each one had a right, they were going to use it and no (alleged) illegal foreign import was going to steal it from them.  Kudos!  The awakening continues.

About the Candidates: This time around, it appears that the opposition were more ready, fielding candidates who were prepared and qualified for public service, rather than just anyone off the street (or behind bars) who stood for some kind of rebellion.  But the sentiment is still strong – ABU (Anything But UMNO or conveniently translated as Asalkan Bukan UMNO) was a movement that began sometime in the last five years because of the compounding discontent and is an example of the increasing feeling of anti-establishment.  And countless protests persist, post-GE13.  The awakening continues.

About the Voice of Youth: the youth of five years ago, older and wiser this time, were evermore entrenched in the belief that “CHANGE” or “UBAH” was imminent going into GE13.  For their sake, I pray that they have also cultivated patience and resolve because I personally believe that it WILL come.

But something else that I had observed about the youth between GEs; many who thought of themselves as inconsequential in the grand machinery of government and the electoral process had realized the difference that they could (should) make, they went out and got themselves registered as voters, not wanting to lose out.  They began to take interest in how government worked.  They felt invested in  the electoral process. They took to the streets and stared down water cannons and tear gas.  They stood up and questioned authority and were not afraid to own a voice.  And when the time came, they made an effort to learn about the candidates before they voted.  They even went to ceramahs to listen to them speak. Suddenly, it was cool to be interested in government and talk about Malaysian politics again.  It was their government and their politics again.  And so, the awakening continues.

About Opposition Government: I think they have done a sterling job, especially in Penang and Selangor.  But don’t take my word for it.  Take it from those who contributed to the majority-vote increase of candidates being returned to office.  In 2008, I had said that it was too early to call it a new dawn.  Rather, it was time for opposition to prove themselves worthy.  And that, they have. 

The heavy disappointment of the Oppostion Coalition's loss is most palpable among urbanites.  After all, it is where they won the popular vote; 51% of Malaysians are pro-Opposition.  However, voters registered within Penang and Klang Valley alone make up 33% of the total but is represented by only 21% of the 222 Parliamentary seats up for contest.  

Najib’s unfiltered and ill-advised utterance of the phrase “Chinese Tsunami” is sadly a delusional knee-jerk attempt to find immediate blame.  It was an “Urban Tsunami”, Sir.  Continue to ignore the dangers of playing divisive racial-politics at your own peril.

Pakatan’s glowing 5-year track record should now be used to further their strategy, which must surely be a fundamental part of the next 5-year plan to capture a larger non-urban base.  Because the awakening MUST continue.

It is easy to think that the Opposition front has been dealt a blow but everything points toward a progressive upward momentum.  The PR leadership still seems to be reeling from the narrow loss two days on.  Ironically¸ it is an obviously hopeful people through their outpouring of sentiments in a social media space that have displayed a maturity in understanding that the battle is lost but it was another emphatic step towards winning the proverbial war.  If the people haven’t lost hope, the leadership shouldn't either. 

Ok, fine.  Brood for 21 days, if you really must, but waste no time in licking the wounds.  The clock is ticking and it's time to start strategizing a counter-attack for the dirty tactics and money politics that will no doubt be faithfully employed again by the BN machinery for GE14.


Monday, September 19, 2011

What Rages the Machines?

Seriously.

Two weeks on and the trail of failed electronic equipment include 3 desktops, 2 laptops and a phone that does nothing but sits pretty on my desk... Nothing; as in it doesn't ring and I can't ring out. It just sits there electronically displaying an unhelpful reminder that it doesn't work.

Even the laptop which had a crashed hard disk and was sent for repairs has now gone down again, from my cursory assessment, with the same problem.  My back up desktop is displaying a message by someone named McAfee that I have a "Fatal Error: [0xEE00000B] EPEi_system_policy".  I think Mr McAfee is neither English nor human.

Not to mention a BlackBerry device which also went through a fatal crash which was un-revivable after my many amateur attempts and The attempts of Sammy, the professional phone surgeon, it remained stubbornly dead. Never mind, I've now bought a spanking new device which I love.

Yes, seriously.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

good vs evil...

It started out as a discussion over dinner about religion being a necessary tool of evil in politicking.  And then it suddenly occurred to me; isn't religion the devil itself?

If there wasn't a continuous polarisation of "good" and "evil" and the subsequent reinforcement of it, would there even be a division between the two?

Rhetoric lightbulb-moment; without good, would there be evil?  Vice-versa - without evil, what is good?  Where is the thin, grey line that tips one over to one side or the other?

The use of religion as a control-tool is inherently dependent on the continuous propogation of the struggle between good and evil.  But doesn't the precept of good and evil exist only in our own heads?

Sunday, June 05, 2011

onwards, to new depths of social retardation...

An Obdient Wives' Club?  Polygamy Club??  Really???!

Do Malaysians really have such low self-esteem?  I mean, don't get me wrong; those who can look at the issue and scoff probably wouldn't dream that they'd ever have a need to be part of such a club (although men may think a Polygamy Club might be amusing, but for all the "wrong" reasons!).  However, the problem is not with those who don't need a club membership, but with those who do.  And I am not about to scoff at how many members this club might enrol, no matter how small.

Why Obedient Wives' Club?  Are Malaysian Wives so blinkered to think that high divorce rates, crime, rape, drug addiction and the Big Bang Theory were all because they weren't good in bed?  Maybe they are so blinkered that they can't see the problem is in the blinkers itself.  Or maybe so close that they can't even see that they're blinkered.

Imagine: remove blinkers.  Change club name.

Change the notion of obedience to awareness or mindfulness.  To be a more thoughtful person instead of going to obedience school.  Think of what should go into their marriage instead of comparing notes with someone else's.  Communicate with a partner instead of doing what is told or expected.  Constructive input as opposed to subservience.

Change the context of being a wife into being a responsible and constructive human being.  Which is what we all are.  Not dogs on a leash.  And we all live with each other, amongst each other.  We form relationships which in turn, enable us to be a part of a functioning society.

Change.  Thoughtful People's Club.  But how many people would clamour to be a member?

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

1-malaysia? i think you have the wrong address...

In George Orwell's Animal Farm, there is a line that lives indelibly in my memory: "All animals are equal, but some animals are more equal than others". I offer that line on the verge of another reflection on Malaysia and its current social state. And Orwell's line was ironcially dictated by the main protagonists of the book; the pigs who ran the farm.

Gob-smacked.

My current state of disbelief at the new heights (or should i say lows) of what the country's social rot has degenerated into. A Malay headmistress in Kulai, Johor, had unmistakably described her Chinese students as passengers who should go "home" to Beijing and likened her Indian students wearing religious wrist bands to dogs wearing leashes. She was today defended by her boss somewhere up the heirachy as being the victim of a misunderstanding. A VICTIM?? And who was doing all this misunderstanding? All 17 of those students who heard what she said and felt compelled to lodge police reports against her?

In stark contrast, imagine this; a Christian Church plans to stage a religious play to coincide with Merdeka Day, on the door will be neon-litted signs that can be seen from the moon which reads "for non-Muslims only". But HORRORS... it is Ramadan, the holy fasting month for Muslims. How dare the Christians plan a play about freedom on our holy month and not invite us? OFF WITH THEIR HEADS! Have the police arrest them heathens for causing instability and inciting religious hatred. Actually, stop imagining... it happened. Today too.

So what has Orwell got to do with this?

I think that there is a large portion of the Malaysian population who live in a state of induced insecurity. The insecurity is created by a group of elites who have it in their best interest to perpetuate that state so as to maintain their self-delusional positions of power. But it's not them that I refer to by quoting Orwell. It's everyone else who are not in the group of elites but who are instrumental in the plan to keep those f*ck*ng (ab)users in the driver's seat.

This state of insecurity is fed by these ambiguities; (1) certain people have a birth-right, (2) enshrined within this birth-right is the constitutional proclamation of their religious identity and (3) what God/State/Dictator/Some Smart Aleck has put together, let no man put asunder.

The Driver's Seat uses the first two elements to create the ambiguity. I call it ambiguous because after a while, a person who was born to qualify for (1) is by default, also a (2). The problem is, they grow up to believe that (1) and (2) are one and the same and those who are discriminately neither number, can go home to China and live like dogs for all they care.

And the Drivers in the Seat allow for this state of delusion and insecurity to exist. That's how they compel this vast majority of (1)'s to keep them in the Seat. Maintain a false sense of threat. Perpetuate a distinction between (1)'s and NON-(1)'s. Enforce the fear of a god to ensure subservience. Create a society with two seperate sets of laws to make the upkeep of a holier-than-thou notion possible. Ultimately, anyone who is not on (1)'s side is perceived to be against them.

Hence, whilst all Malaysians are born equal, some BECOME more equal than others.

Sickened.

Monday, January 25, 2010

malaysia: masih bowlay harap sikit...

I mentioned last week that I had unceremoniously lost my wallet, the careless idiot that I naturally am. Hey, it's been over 5 years that I hadn't lost it, that is some kind of record which I am quite proud of. :-)

So, I went through the tedious process of getting the contents of my wallet replaced. While there was a minor adventure with replacing my driver's license, I was also pleasantly surprised that my Identity Card replaced with absolutely no hassle (albeit a well-deserved fine for my carelessness). But
guess what surprise was even more pleasant? The IC was ready today. Exactly a week later. Now, who says that our government departments are beyond hope?

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

eff-all 2009 in review...

I started off 2009 with something that was less of "a resolution" but more of a promise to myself to adhere to a list of 8 things I saw as centrally important to my life. I wasn't going to change or discard anything, per se. I was just going to consciously do more of the things that mattered. Thus began what I titled my Eff-All Campaign 2009.

And what a year it was for me. I'd done so much that to read all that I had taken time to record over the last 12 months still boggles my mind now. "I did ALL that?? WOW..."

And here's the re-cap:


1. Family: I've somehow succeeded in spending more time with my Ma (and sis) with the now-regular Saturday breakfast outings to Sri Paandi, me for my ghee dosai and Ma for her appam. She would dutifully carry her own little container of gula merah in her handbag to sprinkle on the appam because the shop doesn't serve it. I spent more time with extended family as well, making a conscious and concerted effort to attend more family gatherings, made more meaningful with the number of deaths experienced in the immediate family last year; four to be exact, three of whom were in succession within a three-week period. I've met cousins, nieces and nephews from all far-flung corners who I have not met for a long while and Facebooked many more long-lost cousins.

2. Friends: I've met a lot of new people throughout the year, including a lot of kids! It is an achievement because I still maintain that I am a dreadful curmudgeon and generally very anti-social. But meet new people, I did... somehow. And some have been great, they know who they are. Rekindling old ones is a little more lacking but for sure, there have been some significant recognition of who were NOT worth my time and a whole lot of one-on-one conversations.

3. Fitness: I wanted to be involved in a lot of sporting activity. And I was. I wanted to try new stuff and here, I will just rattle off the things I did of significance or for the first time in 2009: 78km bike ride to Putrajaya, not-quite-ultimate Frisbee, 40km group ride in Putra/Cyberjaya, Cycle Singapore 2009, Dragon Boating, 5km at the Stanchart Marathon 2009, Diving in Perhentian, Badminton Tournament (where Tzee and I didn't lose ALL our games), Tennis with random strangers and intermittent table tennis games. It's been GREAT!!!

4. Free time: Phew! I was quite breathless amidst everything in 2009 and kept busy a lot. I think I now crave my me-time more than ever! Seriously, I would have liked to spend more alone time but that hasn't always been possible. On that note, I have somehow managed to travel 6 new cities, watch 55 movies, attended 11 arts/theatre events and read a measly 3 books.

5. Faith: On my Facebook profile, I listed religious view as "Catholic Agnostic" because I was Catholic first, before I could even recognize who my mother was, and then grew into agnosticism later. I posted that in my warped sense of humour. But I now truly believe it more and more. Learning to surrender when all else fails and in doubt has been more trying. Breaking away from human forms and conformities of the human mind is never easy. I learn, yet.

6. Filosophy: It has been a tough to shut up and conscientiously listen to other points of view before offering my own (if at all). It has been a large challenge but once the I had gotten the hang of it, it was really quite insightful. And what was most apparent to me was the fact that what I thought or what I had to say was sometimes irrelevant or more powerful left unsaid. I don't always have to say something, nor is it expected of me. Silent observation offers a world of insight.

7. Food: Oh, my word... where do I start? I had been to 166 new places to eat in 2009 that I had never been to before. And this does not include the places (including the 166) I've been back to for repeat visits. And the evidence of all this?? It's in my gut... I feel it! ;-)

8. Fear: [Not of fear itself but the acknowledgment of its existence acceptance of its influence and effect on the things that we do.] This one was a little more complicated. It was more of externalizing and understanding other things and people around me and why things happen the way they do. Understanding the fear that drives people to do the things they do and say what it is that they say. It's hard to quantify how successful I have been in this area but it is something that I continually strive to achieve.

Top 5 of 2009:

1. Melbourne, Australia (May 2009)
2. Showdown of Champions 2009, Kuala Lumpur (December 2009)
3. Carcassonne, Figueras, Barcelona (October 2009)
4. Bangkok, Thailand (February 2009)
5. Kuala Gandah Elephant Sanctuary (August 2009)

It's been a an action-packed year. It had its ups and downs and its share of drama but never once, has it been dull. I could write so much more but I fear that writing about the past year will only eat into my time of recording down the year that we're in now. And 2010 will be even greater!

Monday, January 11, 2010

hello 2010... it's been mortifying...

Another year. Is it just me or does time fly faster with every year one adds on to one's age?

It's been a grand old 2009 for me. I'm retrospectively browsing through my 2009 to see how much of my eff-all objective I had achieved and I shall write my observations and achievements in due time. Meanwhile, I'd just like to wish the handful of people who do read this humble and intermittent blog a Blessed and Peaceful 2010.

The date today is 11th of 01 in the year '10. Auspicious as the date may seem, it belies the tough times that we still live in. Economy is supposedly recovering and peace has yet to rear its head in Malaysia. The nation is polarised by an issue of the usage of the word "Allah". Yahweh. God.

Whatever one's religious leanings are and whatever the form or shape that God takes for a person, how can anyone want to claim an exclusivity on the name of God? If you have that much faith in the existence of God and all that is good about Him, then should we not be sharing His name with all and sundry, and IN HIS NAME?

Allah is a name that has been in use to describe God since the ancient forebears of the major monotheistic religions dating back to Abraham. Have the Jews, Muslims and Christians forgotten that they are ALL Abrahamic religions? They all acknowledge Abraham. And back in the day, Abraham worshiped only one God. He is still one and the same God, no matter what you and I choose to call Him today.

So what's in a name?? Get on with life already. There are proposals to write, hungry kids to feed and laundry to do. There's too much to do to be wasting time on arguing semantics and building petrol bombs.

Monday, February 16, 2009

how could i forget...

... it's mid-February and it's only now I realised that I've missed one humongous Eff and that is Far-flung Places, bringing my total number of Effs to 9.

January/February was a Chinese New Year excursion with the Ma, Jo and Sean to Bangkok, my first. February will also see me in Singapore again, to fulfil another Eff; the OCBC Cycle Singapore, my first bike challenge. March is time for Sportel Miami; a shorter trip than usual for me and will spend some extra couple of days in Miami. New York will have to wait.

April/May is another huge, huge first - Melbourne. I've always wanted to go and was planning for later in the year to coincide with the Fringe Festival in September. Now, I have an opportunity to do Melbourne with new-found friends who live and breathe the city, a different experience and, I know it in my bones, it will be one hellava trip.

Sometime after Melbourne will be a continuation of my diving adventure, which will see me completing my Advanced certification and then, the world will truly be mine to share with oysters. :-)

And THAT is my half-year of Far-Flung Places in the bag... stay tuned for Q3 & Q4...

Saturday, January 10, 2009

One last Eff...

... Fear.

Not fear in itself but but the acknowledgement of its existence, acceptance of its influence and effect on the things that we do and finally the application of remedial measures to ensure that we don't screw up (again) because of it.

Friday, January 02, 2009

Doing Eff-all in 2009...

I generally don't do New Year resolutions.

"What's your New Year resolution?" - standard question in the first week of every new year. In the last few years, my standard answer to that question is "I don't make any that I can't keep and frankly, neither should anyone else". HAHAHA... too grumpy an old coot to be encountering on New Year's morning, don't you think? The kind you'd like to kick in the ass, I'm sure... :-)

In any case, I don't believe that there is anything extra that one can do on New Year's day that can't be done on any other day in a year. But if making resolutions are still a must, then I think making ones that are achievable should be the way forward. And there should be no shame in making a list of 100 small do-able things than making one big one that is insanely improbable.

I choose to look at things with a view for continuous improvement and the onset of a New Year is when I remind myself of what it is that I am focusing on. These are things that I already do and/or practice daily and this is merely my way of 'taking stock'. Hence the Doing Eff-all in 2009 is an open-ended work-in-progress which does not end come 31st December. And here are WHAT THE EFFs mean:

1. Family: Filial piety is something that should never be mistaken, misplaced nor disregarded and I think I have been guilty of that for too long; making the conscious efforts to repay those who unquestioningly give me no shite about my life and the way I choose to lead it, especially to my mother.

2. Friends: Cultivating new relationships and rekindling old ones; recognizing those who are ‘worth my time’ and keeping them close. Making time for meaningful conversation in smaller groups, preferably one-on-one.

3. Fitness: In the loosest sense, to avail myself to any type of activity (especially to try new ones) that requires some form of perspiration. Kicking off 2009 with a 78km bike ride was a good start! Cycle Singapore, here I come!!

4. Free time: To do things for myself that are outside of the first three Effs and work; me-time, quiet time, time to think, time to be solitary.

5. Faith: Constantly reminding self that there is a higher power at work that moves and shapes things in ways that are not always immediately clear to us but trust that things happen for a reason, often a good one. And when all else fails or in doubt, SURRENDER (thank you for perspective, scsf).

6. Filosophy: Everyone has something to say no matter how young or old, how (seemingly) sane or not; listen, learn, reflect and analyse. To be more open to what others have to say and being less judgmental is the key.

7. Food: The ultimate savour of life, as experienced through my taste buds.

All said, this will evolve as the year progresses because LIFE in itself, is a work in progress.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

ISA Ain't That Bad... Really...

Wah... another gem today:

The Government hopes to be able to bring home two Malaysians held at the Guantanamo Bay detention camp when Barack Obama takes over as president of the United States in January. Foreign Minister Datuk Seri Dr Rais Yatim said the US had all this while, ignored a ministry request for detainees Mohd Farik Amin and Mohammed Nazir Lep, suspected to be terrorists, to be allowed to face the penalty back in Malaysia. “No charges have been brought against them, and this is worse than the ISA (Internal Security Act),” he said yesterday after the presentation of the South-East Asia Write Award 2008 winner here. - The Star, 18th Nov 2008

So what now? Bring them back to Malaysia and we'll show them, in true Boleh spirit, that ISA detention is better than being locked up in Gitmo?? Ok, Ok... so we won't charge them either... and we'll feed them HALAL dog food costing tax payers RM4.00 (US$1.11) per day.

Whas that you say? Oh, they'll be allowed to face charges once they get back. I see. So what about those still remanded under ISA? Should we send them to Gitmo??

And what does this mean anyway? That it's an official acknowledgement that ISA is bad... just not as bad as Gitmo? Is it like saying "yeah, my pot's black but your kettle's bigger and blacker than mine"???

What's wrong with the people who are allowed to officially open their mouths on behalf of a government which is already disgraceful beyond belief??

Footnote: Isn't it Ironic that Rais Yatim should be speaking about prisoner abuses and the ISA at a regional writing award ceremony? Wonder if awards were allowed to be given to people who write about the ISA...

Friday, November 07, 2008

Wither Boleh-man?

Yesterday's post was ended with a rhetoric; where is Malaysia's Boleh-man?

Today, the editor of Malaysia Today, Raja Petra Kamarudin, was released from ISA detention by the High Court after successfully submitting a habeas corpus application for wrongful detention.

Now, I don't know about the rest of the country, but I think today is a momentous day for Malaysia. Just as it was a day that change arrived in America two days ago, today we saw an unprecedented moral victory for those who are fighting to have the draconian ISA laws thrown out the window. Change has come to Malaysia too.

And yet, while I logged on to what must be one of the biggest social evolutions in web history, called Facebook, I felt like I was a part of a minority who thought RPK's release was a major occasion.

Two days ago, the world watched with bated breath as Obama racked up the electoral votes towards the magical 270 mark. And when it was reached, every single buddy who updated their Facebook status had a reference to Obama for a full six hours after; majority of those buddies are not American, nor were they in America at that time.

Today, upon receiving the news of RPK's release, there were less than a handful (only three references to be exact) in the last two hours to RPK. Ok, maybe the news hasn't gotten around yet and many still don't know. The Star released the news on its front page but I guess it didn't make it on to CNN or Al-Jazeera as yet. The fact remains that people were more aware of what was happening halfway around the world than they are in their own home. Obama wins a victory and people are moved enough to say it on Facebook. RPK is released from wrongful detention and life seemingly goes on as normal.

So, where is Boleh-man? If I had to pick a candidate right now, I would nominate RPK as Malaysia's Boleh-man. But does he even matter?

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Boleh ke?

It is possible for anyone from a minority group to be a nation’s leader, even in Malaysia, says Prime Minister Datuk Seri Abdullah Badawi.

“It is up to the people to decide, just as the Americans had done through the democratic process,” he said while extending his congratulations to Senator Barack Obama.

Reporters had asked him in the Parliament lobby yesterday if it were possible for a person from a minority group to become Prime Minister in Malaysia.

Erm... does Emperor LaLa think he's living in Utopia...?

Aside from the PM, a number of other people including one minister, two (one rumoured, one potential) PM candidates, one ex-PM, have all jumped on the bandwagon to make statements of hope for Iraq, better times, better relations, etc, BUT ALL OF THEM conveniently avoiding reference to the precedent set by Obama of being the first black man elected to the White House.

Even Lim Guan Eng, Chief Minister of opposition and minority Chinese-led Penang, managed a neutral comment; "Americans had made an “inspiring” choice in picking Obama".

Ironically, I think it might be PAS who made a cross-cultural reference to the US elections results; Its spiritual adviser Datuk Nik Abdul Aziz Nik Mat reasoned that Obama’s victory was a “victory of sorts” for Islam because Islam did not differentiate between race or creed. “That is why Obama’s victory is groundbreaking. It also proves there is no such thing as the superior race of the Caucasian. Everybody shares equality in Islam,” he said.

At first read, I didn't see the point he was trying to make... seeing how Obama is not Muslim. But then, I mulled it over and concluded that regardless of the skew in his statement, it was he and the PM who were the only two who ventured into, even if it merely brushed the surface, any reference of a topic that is deemed so sensitive that no one dares publicly speak about it, no matter how obvious the implication may be to the Malaysian context.

Martin Luther King, Jr dreamt of a land where men will not argue that the color of his skin determines the content of his character. The best man, woman or dog for the job. And yesterday, it became very real. In America. But Martin Luther King was an American with a dream for America. Where is Malaysia's Boleh-Man?

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Excruciating...

Like a seed of a thorny bush of blood red roses
planted inside a fertile heart.


No, like a blinding shot through the head
like a an unbearable migraine.


No, like a finger being slammed in a door
reduced to a crushed and bloody pulp.


No, like a tumour that spreads like a plague
invading every crevice of being.


Or like a needle driven into flesh
under the nail.

And for this pain, there is no remedy but time.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Hopefully, It's Malignant...

... I am struggling to come to terms with this scenario; a friend is in hospital having been admitted last week because doctors could not detect the cause of her 10-day-old fever. One test led to another because upon checking the results of her first test, they found other things to run more tests on. Those results came back and they found yet more things... repeat process...

She's been through at least four tests in in almost as many days now. The initial dread was the possibility of a deadly lung tumour. At this stage, the doctor had said that the suspicious nodules found in the lungs could be the cause of a growth elsewhere. That meant more tests. Whoopee. The interminable waiting game to be dealt one's fate is something else I will leave for another day to write about.

Meanwhile, what started out as a dreadful fear for the worst (and the bundle of emotions that went along with it), was dispelled a couple of tests later which confirmed that there is indeed a cyst in her ovaries... there was relief all round. And there was immediate hope all round that it was malignant.

And that's what I'm struggling with.

Most women would have immediately lapsed into the 'dreadful fear' stage that my friend was in if they were being told of a benign growth in the ovaries, let along a malignant one. But my friend is relieved. Because this means that lung tumours can be ruled out. Lesser of the two evils, I guess.

Mind you, this result is still not conclusive. If yet further tests indicate that the cyst in the ovaries is/are benign, they're back to square one... what's causing the lung anomalies? I think that means it's back to dread...


Footnote: I've received heartening news that all tests have proven negative and the respective specialists for problem related to lung, ovary and cancer in general, will consult on the next course of action. In other words, more waiting. But the person who bore the positive news capped it off by saying, "we're not yet out of the woods, but we are out of the big, bad rainforest."

Friday, September 05, 2008

To Moderate, or To Be Moderate? Therein Lies the Rub...

Back in March, there was a uproar on a mailing list that I am subscribed to, one that was for the benefit of the old girls' alumni of Assunta Secondary School, my old alma mater. It was generally to do with freedom of expression on the mailing list that was related to Malaysian politics. Remember... it was March in Malaysia, when we were on the verge of a landmark General Elections.

I was of the view that the list was really a high-school alumni mailing list and its content and contributions should remain apolitical and religiously neutral simply because of the thousands of alumni members are have eventually embraced diverse political views and is, of course, multi-racial, multi-cultural and multi-religious. To share ideas, thoughts and prayers with each other is one thing. But when it starts to border on advocacy where some are more vocal in imposing their views than others, it becomes more sensitive. Especially in the realm of politics and religion.

I have my politcal views and my stand on religion and both are things that I am comfortable with. But I feel no need to impose it on others. I will 'share' my views if they are sought, but I don't feel it my place to tell others that the way I lead my life and the things that I believe in are the right ways for others to follow. Hence, I am understandbly irked when someone does the same to me. You know... do unto others etc...

And then there is the paradox; while the 'leader figures' in the alumni opine that there should be freedom in expression of (their) thought, they are also of the opinion that the list should be moderated. And it is. Hence, there are some self-appointed arch-angels who will vet through all messages before the mere mortals get to read it.

That was in March. And it hasn't changed. Just this last week, the subject was broached again and I felt it necessary to make a comment. Here it is, in reply to someone else on the list with a similar view:

Ju-Lee,

I will have to agree with you on this. I've said this before on this list back in March (and I think we also both said the exact same thing even back then) that this is an alumni mailing list and not a political one. But back then, that line of reasoning faded into the sunset when it was argued with this is a place to 'share ideas', 'free country, free speech', etc.

I continued that discussion offline with some other friends and here is one of the most interesting thoughts that emerged; the members of this list are ex-Assuntarians. Of these past pupils, some of the illustrious daughters have have found themselves in political limelight. Among them are Nurul Izzah who is an MP under the PKR banner and another is Wanita MIC Chief, P. Komala Devi, the BN candidate of Kapar parliamentary seat back in the March 8th elections. Nurul Izzah needs no introduction. And for the benefit of those who can't recall, Komala was feted in the same breath alongside Sister Enda and Datin Seri Jeanne when they all received awards from the Sultan of Selangor back in December.

Here's a hypothetical scenario: imagine it is the month of March 2008. Malaysia is preparing for a general election that would eventually sweep the nation off its feet. Supposing this was a free forum to say what we want to say without fear of reprisals and censure, it would thus be completely allowable for Nurul Izzah and Komala to wage their election campaign battles on this very mailing list, if it had so suited their strategy. And I imagine that as the campaign got more lively, many would have opinions of their own to post, as many vocal Assuntarians would, and there would have likely been an unprecedented number of daily posts with the number going up and up until the excitement died down. I can certainly imagine the moderators' job would have become a full-time task!

This imaginary scenario would have been possible, but would it have been right? I asked the same question back in March, and up til today, I still don't know the answer. My quandry is that I am FOR the argument of freedom to express oneself on ANY list. And yet, I am also AGAINST the notion that the free speech on a secondary school alumni mailing list should include political and/or religious advocacy. The toughest part of this is where to draw the lines. Have it moderated? It sounds like a monumental responsibility, preferably for someone with a neutral head screwed on tightly:

Word Definition: Moderation (noun) - the quality of being moderate; restraint; avoidance of extremes or excesses; temperance.


On Wikipedia, a more comprehensive and contextual explanation of the term include (among others): A moderator may remove unsuitable contributions from a website forum or IRC channel they represent, in accordance with their moderation system.

Interestingly, in that same Wiki entry, there was also a depiction of moderation in an ancient Greek social context: Moderation is also a principle of life. In ancient Greece, the temple of Apollo at Delphi bore the inscription Meden Agan - 'Nothing in excess'. Doing something "in moderation" means not doing it excessively. For instance, someone who moderates their food consumption tries to eat all food groups, but limits their intake of those that may cause deleterious effects to harmless levels. Similarly in Christianity, moderationism is the position that drinking alcoholic beverages temperately is permissible, though drunkenness is forbidden. Moderation is a characteristic of the Swedish national psyche, more specifically described by the Swedish synonym lagom.

So, should there be moderation if one is to support the idea of freedom of expression and non-censorship of thoughts and ideas? It's a paradox, isn't it?

Oh and by the way, there was a point where I had received notices about Sister Enda's supposed political leanings on Facebook with invitations to join social advocacy groups but I see that Sister has now reverted to a neutral stand on the social network. I'm used to having Sister Enda's voice in my head (planted there at the tender age of 13) teaching virtues such as recognizing right from wrong and striving generally to be better human beings. That voice has never said how I should live out those virtues. Hence, to receive notices that Sister Enda is into social activism was rather disturbing.

Nuff said... bring on the mud...


Wednesday, August 06, 2008

How Interesting It Would Be...

... if we had a Prime Minister running the country from county jail...

It was just a funny thought that occurred to me today after reading all the sms alerts, news sites and blogs on the latest appalling state of Malaysian politics. Here are three pieces of news I digested today; (1) the Prime Minister and his Deputy have been accused of corruption by their own UMNO party members from the PJ branch and the accusation is being investigated by the ACA, (2) More said on RPK's site about the unfortunate posthumous celebrity that is Altantuya Shaariibuu and her clandestine links to the DPM and (3) Anwar Ibrahim will formally have sodomy charges brought against him.

Now, think about this...

The DPM is already in a precarious position for the numerous claims of his involvement in the Mongolian murder case. If he is proven to be involved, he could go to jail.

No surprise that Anwar will be brought to court and as a result, there is a real possibility that he could be thrown back into jail.

The Prime Minister is now also being dragged into the fray on accusations of corruption. Last I checked, corruption is a crime and as such, the PM could go to jail.

What I do not know for sure is whether the man or woman who is put in office as Prime Minister is allowed to run the country from behind bars (I do know, however, that it would be rather inconvenient to kiss babies through those bars).

But there you have it. A strange possibility that one, two or all three of them could be thrown in jail. And ALL of them have aspirations to run the country (in the PM's case, I think it remains on his post-honeymoon to-do list since I don't seem to see him actively running it now, imho).

As Alice said in Wonderland, 'curiouser and curiouser!'

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Drilling the Molehill for Some Oil

Letter from my alter ego to the Editor of The Star, posted on 24th June 2008 but to date, remains unpublished:

It did get published!
Here is the link until it gets removed. And am upset they didn't use my nama samaran!

Dear Editor,

I think PDAM (Petrol Dealers' Association of Malaysia) is making a mountain out of a molehill. Frankly, my first reaction upon reading the SMS alert and then the full reports on The Star Online was “oh dear, another one jumping on the crude oil bandwagon.” Disclaimer: I do not work for a credit card company. Therefore, I stand to gain nothing commercially from supporting the continued use of credit cards at the petrol pump. I am, however, a reluctant credit card user because I use it sparingly except when it comes to filling up at a petrol kiosk.

I use my credit card exclusively at petrol stations because it allows me the convenience of filling up with the least amount of hassle. It saves me an additional trip to the ATM to withdraw cash for the transaction. Which truncates the added danger of losing greater amounts of money should I be mugged (because no one can be too careful in today’s society, can they?). A credit card transaction also makes it transparent and accountable on which all details are automatically recorded and printed. It also makes it easier to reference in case of a dispute. Now, in this day and age of wonderful technology, why would PDAM want to go back to the techno-stone age? For a couple of sen?

Let’s also not forget that credit cards encourage greater spending (which explains my reluctance as a user) at the pump and at the convenience stores that have become ubiquitous at stations. Doesn’t this translate to higher consumer spend at PDAM outlets? Not to mention the convenience of filling a full tank as opposed to being limited to the amount of cash that one has at that point in time. Credit cards now have a built in convenience of loyalty programmes which drives customers back to certain brands petrol only, ensuring repeated and continued patronage.

And it can’t be that just because petrol prices have gone up, that their profit margins are disproportionately affected? I might be wrong on this but I can’t imagine their margins being so absurdly illogical or they might as well just give up the business, right? After all, who can afford to live on fresh air and sunshine these days?

It doesn’t take a genius to conclude this; the propensity of a credit card user to spend more at any petrol station is higher than a cash-only user. And credit card companies are trying to find yet other ways to drive consumers to buy more petrol on plastic. I would imagine that among those who will benefit greatly from all these efforts are the retailers who sell the petrol to these hungry consumers. Surely, that additional 0.8 sen per liter that they must now bear is a small price to sacrifice?

My two-sen worth.

J Lo